We must sell...

This is a tough week for me as my husband and I have come to the decision to finally put our house on the market. We will be meeting with the real estate agent very soon to get all the details worked out and then listed.

My younger sister, Rachael, and I have been doing some painting in some of the rooms of my house this week. You have to have seen the before... but trust me when I tell you that the walls were really kinda... shall I say nasty. Just kinda beyond dirty. I don't think they have been painted for probably 10 yrs or so. We did not paint the bathroom nor 2 of the bedrooms or the laundry room before moving in 2 yrs ago. So we got busy this week and got one of the bedrooms and the main bathroom painted... and it is soooo beautiful. I was just telling my sister that I'm going to get it all fixed up nice and not want to leave. Well, I guess that I kinda already don't want to sell, but we must. It is time to start another chapter in our lives.

We will be moving from our house into an apartment for a short time and then around the first of next year, we will be moving to southern CA. More specifically the L.A. area. My husband has a dream to finish art school and become a designer. Yet again, more specifically, doing environmental design. That kind of includes anything from products to well most anything a company needs design-ing. The move will be hard on us... and maybe not so hard on Josiah himself, but for all the family that will miss him, it will be quite difficult. It is hard for me to focus on that right now, I hate to take Josiah away from his grandparents becuase I know what it's like to live so far away from family as a child. It is really hard. But I'm trying to convince myself that this is what is best for our family, and really in my head I know it is the right thing for us do. But my heart hurts for that day we leave Oregon.

But for today... I am living it to the best of my ability and enjoying as much of Oregon as we can, and letting that little son of mine soak in as much visits with family as possible. Today I can live and be happy with, and tomorrow, well it can worry about itself.