This week has been filled with both.
I am encouraged this week that my spotting has almost all stopped. I have only had a very little bit this week and I am really happy about that. I usually go at least 1-2 days without. And all this encouragement with the fact that I have been up a little bit more at home. I have decided to try to be up just a bit more and see what my body can handle. So I get up and get myself a quick snack and something to drink, and I sit on the floor with Josiah for a couple minutes to help him with a toy or change a diaper. This morning when I got done with my shower, I thought everyone was still sleeping (sister was actually getting ready) so I went upstairs to get Josiah and made us some instant oatmeal and toast for breakfast. That was the first time in a month I have actually been able to make myself some food, other than grabbing a muffin or bagel for snack. It is really quite an accomplishment for myself. Not that I plan to get up every morning and do such things, I'm not ready for that yet, but it's the small steps that make me feel better about myself. Anyway, with all the movement I have had (which in reality, still makes me sound like a sloth) I have been feeling rather well. Don't worry folks I'm not gonna go off backpacking or something, or definitely not even venture on a walk around the block yet, but moving around the house a bit is a good thing.
My frustrations this week mostly goes back to caring for my son. I really want to get back in there and be the mommy and take care of him but I know I can't becuase of my limitations. My body does let me know when I take one too many steps. I would love to be able to pick up my son. You have no idea how my heart breaks to see others be able to pick him up effortlessly and comfort him when gets an owie or when he jsut needs a hug. That is hard for me. Also, what bothers me is the fact when I do try to scold him or just talk to him he throws a fit. He doesn't listen to me hardly at all. I understand that it's probably because he has learned that I can't always just get up and make him obey me, but it certainly doesn't make things any easier. I suppose that is why I ultimately decided I am going to get up more and make more of an effort to play with him more. I want him to be comfortable with me again. I want him to simply listen to me. This is probably the hardest thing that I have to deal with these days.
Well there's that and watching my husband work tirelessly at work then to come home this week and get our apartment finished. Tonight all he has left is to gather what's left in his truck and clean the house. Then he is done. I am very proud of all the work he has accomplished. He has done this nearly all by himself(except for some help from my Dad and brother-in-law moving furniture, and my sister last night shlepping boxes) and he is exhausted but he has really done so much. He deserves something really nice... jsut wish I could serve him. :-(
Well folks, always good to hear from you all, take care and give those you love big hugs and never take that for granted! It's a good thing. :-) Blessings to all.
3 comments:
My dear, sweet friend,
Pat yourself on the back for writing first about your accomplishments; good job! I know you well enough that you'll listen to your body when it says
"Enough for now". I feel your frustrations, though. Perhaps what is going on with Josiah is he doesn't completely understand what is going on and doesn't know how to express in words, so not listening to you is his way of reacting. Poor guy is probably confused more than anything. It has to be tough on you, too, when you can't be the one to take care of him 100%, but you are doing a fantastic job. Keep up the good work; I miss you!
Here are a couple hints I've run across re taking care of a toddler while on bed rest:
• Avoid telling a young child that "mommy is sick". Instead, say something like, "I have to stay in bed so the baby can be healthy when it is born."
• Set aside some time each day to spend with your child. Watch a video or take a nap together, sing, cut and paste pictures, etc. Make sure your child gets a chance to run around a bit before spending time with you, so he or she won't be restless.
Doesn't really address the discipline side of things, but might help anyways by making your time w/ him more positive...
Also - isn't he close to that age when little boys start pulling away from Mommy anyways and needing the male influence more & more?
Just don't beat yourself up for what you can't do. And Don't Over Do It!
Julia
Glad you seem to be filling a bit stronger. I also had a very difficult second pregnancy, and spent lots of time in bed. I ended up relying family quite a bit. Everything worked out fine, and that baby is now 35 yrs old..
Glad you enjoyed the views of the beach!
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