I got it!

Well I got the call Friday afternoon, from Esther, the office manager to offer me the position. I obviously told her yes, and then she told me she wanted to come in to start on Monday morning so she could show me around some and take me to the office where I would work and get me keys. (WOW, I get keys too!) She said I would have Tuesday off since my official training did not start until Wednesday. I was more than happy with starting on Wednesday and having Tuesday off... becuase there is much to do on that day this week.

For one, we need another vehicle. If I am going to work in Monterey and Carmel (I will go between the 2 offices) which is about 90 miles aday, I don't want my husband to have to take me to work or be stuck at home with a 2 yr old with no vehicle either. Plus when he gets a job he is going to need his own vehicle to drive. So that is what we will do hopefully on Tuesday... find a vehicle. We have been searching since we moved here over a month ago about what kinds of vehicle's might be right for us, and have narrowed it down to a couple cars with specific years we would like. Now, the mission is to find "the" car.

I want shout how happy I am that I was able to get a job. I know that I am very capable of this type of work and I am thrilled that they liked me and thought so highly of me, but inside I am fighting this unbearable voice in the back of my head saying "how do you think you can go back to work after all this time and be good at anything." I suppose that is my personal demons attacking me and I have to learn better self talk. Just another obstacle in going back to work. But honestly, I am excited but reserved at the same time. I have been a mom for the last 2 and a half years, how does one switch gears from being a stay at home mommy to being a working mommy? I feel so guilty with the thought of leaving my precious child behind while I go off into the world. I know that he will be perfectly fine, and even now when I leave him for the afternoon to go somewhere, he is happy to see me when I get home but it's not a run up to me and hug my leg for dear life and never want to let me go kind of thing. Do you ever go back to that? I will miss spending all day with him but I will also learn to like being at work as well. Like I said, I am really excited to go back to work, I just wish I wasn't feeling so guilty about it.
Well, If I am ever to get any quilting done I better get busy this afternoon.
Blessings to you all!