Well since my last post I have been quite busy worrying about stuff. If you know me very well, I am notorius for worrying. I have many times tried not to, but it just creeps back in. Maybe one of these days God will teach me once and for all, that he is in control and everything happens for a purpose. I do not need to worry about tomorrow becuase He can take care of it for me. Well until that time comes... I am distressed.
As you all know, my house is for sale. It has been on the market for 2 months! The last month however we have had 4 realtors show our home. Yes, only 4! All I can think about is the fact that our home needs to sell so we can relocate our family to CA so my husband can go back to school. (Speaking of husband and back... well more on that later) Anyway, I do not do well with uncertainty. It drives a me a little bonkers after a long period of time. Maybe I am a bit of control freak or something, but something just drives me to know what is going to happen to me, and have some sort of choice in the matter I suppose. But as far as when my house will sell, well I have no control over that at all! So I am left with, 1) when is our house going to sell? 2) when will we move? 3) will we be around here for christmas this year? 4) what wil this do to my son? 5) will this adversely effect his relationship with his grandpa(my dad)?
UGH... the questions that nobody can answer...
The other main worry on my mind, I briefly mentioned above. My husband hurt his back last week. Now, my husband is a flooring sub-contractor, so a hurt back means no work. He took some much needed time off last week but decided he needed to work this week to continue providing for us, his family. I admire his need to provide for us, but I worry that he will only injure himself further. I find myself praying without ceasing all day long for him this week to be well and not in too much pain. He assures me that he is working slowly and taking it easy when he has to lift things, and I am left to trust that he be walking home that day. How do you trust that will happen?
I am sorry to sound like such a sap today but there is much on my mind, and I can't seem to find much else to say. I leave you with my heavy thoughts for today. We all have our valleys and maybe today is one of mine, but this too shall pass. I know that God has a plan for us and it will all work out in the end, and for now that is what I will rest in.
4 comments:
Waiting for things to happen is always hard for me. I like things wrapped up nicely-I like to know what will happen next-funny though that life is not like that, is it? Hang in there!
My hubby is a ceramic tile contractor-what does yours do? My guy also struggles with a bad back even though he has found some relief with a chiropractor.
God is good, dear sister and He is in control. He loves you and Jonny and Josiah and only wants what is best for you. Trust in that.
Now that's two ppl that have talked about a chiropracter, I think it's time for Jonny to see one.
Randi-Jen's husband lays flooring (vinyl mostly), but sometimes other types as well, but not ceramic tile like your hubby.
I love you! Believe in that...
-dawn
Thank you Randi for your kind words. :-) Yep, my hubby lays vinyl flooring most of the time. We have considered a chiropractor as well, but what keeps us from searching one out is that our insurance does not cover it. :-( darn kaiser...
Thanks sis, I love you too. :-) Thanks for the reminders. :-)
ah ya know...that's what i'm here for
ld
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