2 weeks later

Well it has been 2 weeks since I'd been told it could be 2 weeks before he could be accepted into the new day treatment program AND I'm still waiting for them to call me for the intake appt. I'm really trying to be patient but it's super hard. Especially given our last couple weeks. Josiah's anxiety has gotten to a level that's not only hard at school (well nearly impossible there) but incredibly difficult to deal with at home. He's definitely going through some of the hardest emotional "stuff" I think he ever has!

I wish I could explain what we deal with here at home but honestly it's hard to explain. He's a mess lately and it's hard to watch this and not know what to do. I really am hoping the treatment center calls soon!

Today I met with Social Security for our last and final meeting regarding Josiah's eligibility for services. The news is that he has been found eligible under Autism and ADHD. So it's official... he is considered disabled and I am his caretaker. I find it so surreal to have this put in writing by this point in our lives. We have been through sooooo much with this dear child, but now it is federally found that he is disabled and is eligible for benefits. It's a great accomplishment to finally get this, so why do I feel so discouraged tonight? I think taking care of him is something that I just do and not think about the big picture, but to sit and listen to somebody explain all that I already do... and then some... was quite undeniably real for me.

I think I will just wake up tomorrow and begin another as they all do, and continue the work that I always do. :-)

On another thought...I finished a book this week. It was really thought provoking. I find myself still thinking about the sub-plot and characters introduced and the ending. Such an odd ending! I do see there is a second book, I may have to get this soon to answer some unanswered questions the ending left behind. The book is called "The Walk" by Richard Paul Evans.

Oh yes, and my training is going well. The 5k is 3 and 1/2 weeks away now and I am still struggling to run the whole 3 miles but I am able to run a mile in about 11-12 minutes. I run/walk about 13-17 miles a week. I can feel a difference already and have lost about 6 pounds. I am excited for the run but I am really hoping that I will just not make a fool of myself on race day. (Don't we all hope that simple fact at some point in our lives?)